Love is like a pair of shoes

Kenneth Cole Reaction Keynote Shoes
"If the shoe fits wear it, baby." ~Louie Heredia
(mali yung nakasulat sa songhits)

So pasira na yung black leather shoes ko (age 21 months) and I need to find replacement ASAP. I kept going back to SM department store to find one. First time I went there may sale pa at nagpasama ako kay Herson pero wala akong nakitang bet ko.

The next time I went alone thinking may bagong stocks na pero walang black na gusto ko. Though I've seen this brown W. Brown pointed shoes na may parang backstitch design. Sinukat ko and I felt like sinaniban ni Cinderella. It's on discount, 800+ PHP. I asked the saleslady if they have a black one in stock pero wala daw. Dapat siguro W. Black ang brand choz. I asked if they have other stock na similar pero No pa rin.

The last time I went there was just this Friday. I went with Jen to try again. At wala pa rin akong nasight na bet ko. Pinakita ko sa kanya yung brown shoes na type ko at nagustuhan din nya. Pinipilit pa nya akong bilhin ko na kasi nga last stock na. Inexplain pa nya sakin na wala namang memo regarding wearing of black shoes sa office. Oo nga naman, pero sabi ko mas formal kasi yung black.

Did I just walk away from my supposed infatuation junkie?

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Halfway through the pauses and playbacks ng Before Sunset, I came across this conversation (transcript via script-o-rama)
Jessie: I satisfy one desire, and it just... agitates another, you know? Then I think, 'to hell with everything,' right? I mean, desire is the fuel of life. I mean, do you think it's true that if... if we never wanted anything, we'd never be unhappy?

Celine: I don't know... Not wanting anything, isn't that... a symptom of depression? Yeah, that is, right? I mean, it's healthy to desire, right?

Jessie: Yeah... I don't know, I mean, it's what all those Buddhist guys say, right? You know, liberate yourself from desire and you'll find that you already have everything you need.

Celine: Yeah, but I feel really alive when I want something more than just basic survival needs. I mean, wanting whether it's... intimacy with another person, or a new pair of shoes, is kind of beautiful... I like that we have those ever-renewing desires.

Jessie: Well, maybe it's just a sense of entitlement. You know, like whenever you feel like you deserve that new pair of shoes, you know. It's ok to want things as long as you don't get pissed off if you don't get them.

Celine: Yeah.

Jessie: Right, life's hard. It's suppose to be. If we didn't suffer, we wouldn't learn a thing, you know?

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Hay pati ba naman sa header image ko eh nahirapan pa akong pumili. Pero I love that shoe oh. It's worth $ 89.00 daw, around 4k pero ang budget ko 1.5k lang. Poorita Kalaw Katigbak! Present!

Yah know looking for a pair of shoes is hard for me. I know the pair that I want kahit sa malayo pa lang. And that's love. Minsan I know what I want pero iba yung color kaya I need to walk away and bear the days and nights thinking about it, it may not be perfect pero I know that's the one for me. If the shoe fits, buy it... later! hahah Pero kapag wala na sya pagbalik mo eh, it's not meant to be, at least not for now siguro.

I can't stop thinking of you W. Brown ha. I dream of you all the time. Shett I miss you na nga yata. hahah

Implikasyon: I desire that's why I'm depressed. I'm not pissed. But I've suffered. Yet I haven't learned a thing, have I? And yeah, I really want those pair of shoes, and some intimacy with another person. hahah


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After this, maybe I can finish with the burrdey blog and Before Sunset. Inhell, exhell, inhell, exhell...

Gulong ng Buhay

In the squatter villages by bradjward via Flickr.
Gulong ng buhay... sana bukas nasa ibabaw naman?!

Heto akoooohhh...


Bumabagyo na naman! Baha na sa kalsada namin. Biglang BUZZ!!!

Elvin: Tan bahay ka?

Athan: Omg malamang nasa bahay ako. Umuulan eh. Choz
    
Elvin: Punta ako dyan now na!

Athan: Adik to!

Elvin: Sige na!

Athan: Bakeeeeehhht?!

Elvin: Eto naman parang hindi prend.

Athan: Ano meron? Kung kasama mo si yohji gogogo!

Elvin: Pareho kaming walang pang-motel ni Yohji eh. Pede dyan na lang?

Athan: Ayyy leche! Ok na sana kaso gagawin nyong motel tong kwarto ko. Kakastress!

Elvin: Kasali ka naman eh or kahit kayo muna saka na ako.

Athan: Cheh ka. Ano nga? Bakit? Anong meron?

Elvin: Miss kita.
    
Athan: Bumabagyo teh eh. Kung miss mo ako eh mag-Rairaiken na! hahah

Elvin: Bumabagyo nga lumipad bubong namin kaya dyan muna ako. hahahah

Athan: Omg eh di Basang Basa sa Ulan ang drama mo?
    
Elvin: May kasama pang Luha.
    
Athan: Dapat nilagay mo yung Gulong ng Buhay sa bubong nyo pala.
    
Elvin: Yaw ko magkalamok teh.
    
Athan: Nako baka hawaan mo ko ng dengue.
    
Elvin: Wala akong dengue.
    
Athan: Eh ano yang spots sa buong katawan mo? Omg
    
Elvin: AIDS?
    
Athan: Bulutong yata. Eeewww get away from me! Choz!
    
Elvin: Cheh! Si Yohji din kaya. Andami dami nya sa pwet. hahaha
    
Athan: Omg. Ako na mag-aalaga sa kanya. Di ka marunong. Ang dapat jan binebeybi hindi pinapatay! Ano daw?
    
Elvin: Diba nga binigay ko na sayo? Baket pilit bumabalik saken?
    
Athan: Ano yan yoyo? Kakainis to! hahah
    
Elvin: Chusera!


Namiss ko to teh. Kelan ka magpapa-Rairaiken?! hahah

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Naalala ko lang yung kwento ni Furdy dun sa kakilala nilang nang-utang pero di pa nakakabayad. Umiiwas na at nagdadahilan ng kung anu ano. Biglang nagstatus sa FB ng ganito:

Bilog ang mundo lagi natin tatandaan yun... cguraduhin lang ng mga nasa taas kaya rin nila pag nasa baba na sila! Sana lang... ;)

Sabi ni Paul baka daw sa gulong nakatira yung utangero.

Dark Choco

May tirang Toblerone sa ref. Sey ni Momey kung gusto ko daw, milk choco. Sabi ko ayoko. Masyadong pasweet. Bitter ako eh!

Sey ni Furdy, ang tunay na dark choco di madaling matunaw. Nilantakan namin yung Meiji na padala nung mommy nya galing Japan. Kalagitnaan ng summer yon, di nga sya tunaw.

Sey ni ateng Malou kung gusto ko daw ng choco nya, Cadbury, sabi ko ok na po ako sa Goya.

Biglang poof, binigyan ako ng dark choco, at Goya pa. Nagpabarya lang pala si Dark Chowko kaya binigay nya sakin yung Goya Dark Choco. Nabasa nya kaya na like ko sya? I mean the Goya dark choco. Choz!

Eh biglang natunaw yung choco na to nung tinago ko sa bag. Shett isa kang malaking peke! Ayheychu! hahah

Dahil jan magbibigay na ako ng food reference sa mga friends, acquaintances, enemies and the like. Go! Some people associate songs with people, ako ia-associate ko sila with taste hahah.

Tandaan: Bitter and salty will be prioritized. Sour and sweets will have to be deliberated. Umami will go straight sa lababo.

Moon Crystal Power

 Lunar Corona by I am marlon via Flickr.
"Tsukini kawatte oshioki yo!" ~Usagi

 
Mek-ap!
 
 
Yah know nung bata pa lang ako eh nagpapaniwala ako sa mga kwento kwento ng mga pagtatransform sa gabi. Sikat na sikat noong 90s yung mga manananggal with the pahid pahid ng langis at pagdivide ng lower half tapos fa-fly na si ateng Alma Moreno or madam Lilia Cuntapay with matching bat wings at hinangin-sa-labas na herr style. Di ko maintindihan bakit iniiwan nila in the open yung lower half with the palda and evrathang para lang mabuhusan ng asin. Dapat nga umami ang pinangbubudbod nila para sure na tegi kagad di ba?
 
Ang jologs nyan compared sa western stories ng lycanthropes commonly known as werewolves. As if naman kasi merong wolf sa Maynila, or sa Pilipinas? Meron nga ba? Hindi porke't nakapagchange ka na to wolf pagbalik mo sa human form eh hunk ka na. Kelangan ng matinding gym or adobe powers noon. Pero sila naman eh tumatransform sa full moon hindi yung anytime na pwede eh go sila.

Di tulad nitong mga beki. Sa gabi may Moon Crystal Power Make-up and poof bongga na sila, regardless sa phase ng moon. Yung iba more powerful sa New Moon sa kubli ng dilim, yung iba more glamorous sa Full Moon sa refraction ng light sa foundation.
 
Mek-ap!

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White Party
06.26.2010

Bugso ng hindi natuloy na coffeehan, discohan, at videokehan nung nakaraang linggo dahil nagka-emergency sila Jomz sa house nila, napagpasyahan namin na jumoin sa White Party.

This is my second white party. Nung 2009 parang ordinary Saturday night lang. Walang stage. Walang program. Walang music. Walang crowd. Walang bubbles. Nagkanya kanya lang ang mga bars. This year full force sila ha. Dubbed Lunar White chorva kasi nga full moon that night. May stage. May program. May music. May crowd. Walang bubbles pero maraming kabonggahan silang pinrepare.

Closed ang traffic going to Orosa y Nakpil dahil barricaded na ang place. Sa may giant pilsen  balloon kami nag-antayan at nagkita kita nila Jomz. May entrance fee ng fifty pesos with matching pink bands at number pa. May pa-raffle ba sila? Anong prize? Mek-ap?!

Si Jomz went there in all purple glory from shirt to shoes lurvett, si Dolph in white v-neck shirt at si Ino in blue striped long-sleeved polo. Si Abbu in white long sleeves. Ako naman in blue and white checkered polo, more blues than whites. Last year nga blue and white striped shirt, more whites than blues pero ang tingin ng mga tao blue daw ang suot ko. Color blind pala ang mga beki. Maya maya nagdatingan na ang ibang mga friends. Jade was wearing white shirt, he was with Miguel wearing black pero ang weird lang sa kanya eh meron syang Sharin-gan contacts. Mejo naskerd ako, anything about eyes kasi freaks me out. Then enter frame si Juna na kinabog kaming lahat dahil all white sya from polo to pants to shoes and glasses. Di ko na inalam kung pati undies eh white din. Si Popoi humabol lang wearing white shirt and shorts na parang pang elementary lang.

We stayed muna sa Silya for a while para sa fine dining dahil tomguts pa yung iba. Then we decided to go out and look for a bar to go. Paglakad pa lang sa labas eh punong puno ng tao. Haggard lumipat sa Orosa side. After ng push-pila na naganap eh di rin kami makapasok sa O-bar or Che'lu dahil jampacked na daw. We got stucked dun sa forgettable videoke bar na ginagawang CR ng mga walang pang entrance sa ibang bars. We got one bottle of SanMig Lite each. Di namin akalaing yun na ang last bottle namin for the night.

Biglang nagstart na ang program sa stage na nakaset-up. Hosted ito ni Lex Bonife, na napagkamalan kong effem version ni Jamby. May award award-ang naganap at binigyan sila Vice Ganda at Sweet. Josko wala pang five minutes yung total airtime nilang mag thank you sa stage tapos exit stage left at pack-up na. May umakyat ding mga konteserong Mr. Gay World Philippines na tinilian ng sangkabekihan yung iba.

Nagperform si Lady Gagita ng Ale-alejandro kasama ang bigay na bigay nyang mga buk-ap dancers. Si Haronce entra din ng Single Ladies pero parang hapontukin sya sa kakulangan ng supply ng Enervon. Mabuti na lang talaga naghelp-a-friend si Lady Gagita at pumerform na sila ng Telephone. Kaso sira yung audio, naging statue dance ang performance nila. Infernezz sa kanila ha kineri nila kahit sinabotahe ang show nila. Nag-end ang show sa mga gogo boys na gumigiling at lahat umiistreet partay.

Exit frame kami pabalik ng Silya. Kasama na rin namin sila Ef, Sher at Waga, at may isa pang guy sa likod ni Sher pala... akala ko friend nya kasi nakaakbay. Maniac pala, nilalamas na ang butt ni Sher kaloka. Nakasalubong pa namin si Mitch na compared sa last year's kurtina gown eh mas normal pero beautiful pa rin ever. Kasama nya si Chard na parang nangayayat ngayon ng todo. Nakakuha kami ng seat malapit sa kitchen ng Silya. Elevated ito kaya maganda ang view to make aura at okray.

May nakita si Jade na nakared gown at isang mahabang korona, which he dubbed High Priestess samantalang ang tawag ko lang sa kanya eh Queen Seon Dok. Merong Jabba the Hutt guy na parang ilang bata na ang kinain, whole. Merong ilang kapulisang present don, beki rin sila teh? Merong guy doon (nasa dream sequence daw ni Popoi at nakita nya'ng nategi after nila jumerjer. Officemate pala ni Ef yon) na kaloka ang outfit, meron syang suot na Solar system na headgear.

Present din ang mga twitter buds ni Jade doon pero keber syang ipakilala kaming lahat. Hindi pa naman sya bangag that time pero nawala ang kanyang social graces to introduce people. *Choz arte lang* Nagkaalaman na lang kami a week after yata. Ayyy-sya-pala-yon?!-moments. Ni wala man lang kaming mention sa tweet nya.

RT @crazyangelblue: White Party with @messengerbagboy @Yurow @wthroflmao @blissandvoid

 
Dumayo naman kami sa backstage para maki-dance. Actually pwedeng umakyat sa stage and we did. Kaso ang scary kasi umaalog sya. Bumaba kami afterwards para maghanap ng bar na pwedeng pasukan. Ayon sa sitsit eh suicide na daw pumasok sa bar dahil sa kasikipan, may libre ka pang buni, an-an, alipunga, hadhad... well for sure hadhad makukuha mo. Dapat may baon kang Canesten para alis na ang kati-kati.

Kahit alas kwatro na eh may nagchecheck pang bouncers sa bars kaya di rin kami maka free entrance. Luhaan kaming rumetreat past four. Nag-McDo pa muna bago magdisperse. Si Waga may balak pa atang bumalik at maghagilap ng wala pang take home. Ano to?! The boat is sinking group yourselves into two?! Kaloka! Baka nga naman daw yung mga choosy nung madilim pa eh naiwan pa don at gogora na lang sa next best tira tira.

 

Wensha  
06.27.2010

Nagpaalam naman ako sa kanila na may lakad pa ako sa Timog after ng Malate. Nakasakay ako ng bus going to Fairview para derecho na'ng Timog. Usapan na kasi namin ni Warren na gogora kaming Wensha this morning ng 6 am under one condition: ililibre nya ako ng half. Dahil siguro wala syang mahaltak this time to make Wensha eh um-oo na rin sya.

Nakarating rin ako sa Timog sa wakas. Nagtanong ako sa manong gardo ng oras, twenty to six. Sobrang aga ko pa pala. Nahiya naman akong maghintay sa loob ng Wensha kaya I stood outside na lang, kunwari naghihintay ng jeep. On blast mode muna ako sa mp3 player na sumesenti. Di ko naman matext si Warren kasi ba naman na-lowbatt ako kakatext ng mga tao sakin na ginawa ba naman akong logistics officer. Tinitignan ko bawat taxing dumaraan kung sya na ba yung nakasakay sa loob.

Gaano ba katagal maghintay ng twenty minutes? Madali kung meron kang dalang relo. Paano kung wala. Ang basehan ko eh ang dami ng kantang bumubulusok sa aking tenga. Around five to six songs siguro average. Ilang Freestyles, GaGas, Third Eye Blinds, at Imagos na ang nakalipas eh wala pa ring Warren. Ilang taxi at jeep na ang tumigil at tumingin sa akin eh wala pa rin. Sinikatan na ako ng araw wala pa rin.

Shett ininjan ata ako. Dahan dahan akong naglakad pasakay ng jeep patungong MRT at jeep uli sa bahay. Pagod. Puyat. Gutom. Low-batt. Nagtweet muna sa web bago nagcharge ng battery. Biglang *toot* may isang message, galing kay Warren sinasabing male-late sya kasi may chorva muna sila ni Joross. Tinext ko kagad kung nasaan sya at tumawag kagad. Pinapasunod pa ako sa Wensha. Go daw aantayin nya ako kahit 7:30. Parang nabawasan ang pagod ko at dali daling sumugod pabalik ng Timog (after magharvest syempre)

Trenta hanggang kwarenta singko minutos lang ang byahe pala kapag walang traffic. Pagkarating doon eh nagrequest akong magbreakfast muna dahil hindi na kinakaya ng sikmura ang pag-aayuno in preparation sa Wensha'ng to. Konting sinangag lang at juice gogogo na uli ako.

Tandang tanda ko pa naman ang mga dapat gawin dito sa wensha. Una maghubad ng lahat ng saplot including undies, twalya lang ang dapat isuot, at itago ang mga gamit sa lockers provided, then go ka na magshower before dipping sa jacuzzi. Kaso nakalimutan ko palang no slippers allowed sa wet area. Naalala ko lang nung nagsa-shower na ako. Kaya pasimple kong itinago sa loob ng cubicle yung sinelas shett.

Paglabas sa shower eh napansin kong nakapatay yung TV nila. Ayon sa chikkadorang manikurista ni Warren eh one month na daw na walang cable doon. Naputulan siguro ng jumper hahah. Yung dating scalding hot tub nila eh maligamgam lang din today. Pero yung cold tub parang galing sa ref. Nagtitipid ba sila sa costs or what? Kunsabagay konti pa lang ang customers nila this early.

May lima o anim lang kaming nasa wet area that time. Yung dalawa eh chubby kaya dedma, yung isa eh daddy type, yung isa chinito. Kita namin na nagkukulong sila ng madalas sa steam room kaya sumugod din kami. Wala naman, navaporize lang ako. Lumipat kami sa saunang walang tao at walang malay. Favorite spot namin to kasi clear yung glass partition, sound proof, hindi masyadong barbecue mode, at di sya pinagkakaguluhan ng mga tao. Dito kami madalas mang-okray ng ibang customers, I mean mag-observe kasi nga ginagawa na naming private space ito. Hindi naman lahat ng nasa loob ng menagerie eh syang nasa spotlight, minsan yung nasa loob pa mismo ang maraming puna sa nasa labas. Gaya nung daddy at chino. Napansin na namin na nagkukulong sila ng madalas sa steam. Ni-dare ko si Warren na sundan sila don para tingnan kung may milagrong nagaganap. Go naman sya. Wala naman daw. Magkalayo yung dalawa. Si Chino nasa wall naka-full nude pero nakatalikod, parang nag-aabang ng bobona sa kanya. Choz!

Tambling na kami sa second floor para magpamassage, ashushwal male. Dinala kami sa isang room na may three beds. Tigkabilang dulo kami kasi merong railings overhead, baka daw may tapakan massage na maganap, ambitious! Pumasok na yung dalawang masseur. Yung naka-assign kay Warren eh chumichikka nung una. Pati ba naman work tinatanong. Ano to may kasamang lifestyle check? Yung sakin naman eh puro "ok ka lang ba ser?" ang tanong. Ano naman sasabihin ko eh di okay. Tuwang tuwa pa sya kapag napapatunog nya yung mga buto ko, lamig daw yon. Siguro marami akong lamig sa lower back kasi doon lagi masakit sa madalas na pagkakaratay sa upuan. Madalas din don nya ako minamassage, malapit lapit sa aking butt. Kaloka, taray ni koya? Single ka koya? If you want jerjer, I'll give you jerjer. I'll be there in my red bible, magpray na lang tayo. Choz! Bago matapos ang entire massage-an eh nagtanong pa si kuya kung gusto ko ng stretching, na tinanggihan ko naman. Ayoko nang mabali ang katawan ko. Okay na ako sa ganitong smooth and shiny and glowing. Mek-ap!

Iniwan na ako ni Warren sa room para magpamanicure/pedicure. Bumorlogz ako ng bongga sa loob. Naalimpungatan kong may pumapasok sa room pero lumilipat din sila. Nagising ako after less than an hour yata, ramdam ko kasing may woodmorning na ako. Nakakahiya dahil andami pa namang sumisilip. At take note nakanipis lang ng robe nila para takpan ang aking yah know.

Lumabas na ako sa common room para abangan si Warren. Tomguts na ako pero ok lang na mag-antay ako at magmasid. May dumating na isang pamilya galing sa baba. Parang first timers sa spa. Nagtatanong pa sila ng instructions kung san ang ganito at ganyan. Yung male area po sa baba. Bumaba yung daddy at kuya. Naiwan ang nanay at kaatehan. Maya maya Mek-ap! nakapagtransform na rin sila. Lumingon ako kung san sila nanggagaling. May door pala malapit sa massage area ng female, dun din yata ang wet area nila. At least ngayon alam ko na ang misteryo, merong female area ang Timog branch, di nga lang equal ang placement sa floor plan gaya nung sa Pasay. Di to pepwede sa akin, dahil isa akong advocate ng symmetry.

Nakikinig din ako sa sigaw nung receptionist papuntang massage area. Tawag lang sya ng tawag ng mga masahista kung kanino maa-assign ang mga to. Isang lalaki sa babae, isang lalake sa babae now na! Ang bongga lang tumawag ni teh. Isang babae sa lalake, isang babae sa lalake now na! Parang host lang na nagtatawag ng contestant. Dalawang lalake sa dalawang lalake, dalawang lalake sa dalawang lalake now na! Parang orgy lang kakaloka. Isang top sa isang bottom, isang top sa isang bottom now na! Isang butch sa isang femme, isang butch sa isang femme now na! Baka naman isang comedy bar host ito nung past life nya. Isang love para sa isang hopeless romantic, isang love sa hopeless romantic ngayon din!

Bumalik na ako sa pagtatimespace warp nang mapansin ko ang isang pechay customer na kakatapos lang ata magpamassage. Kumuha ng food, halos isang bandehado. Umupo sya sa dulong table, tago sa crowd. Nung dumaan ang isang waiter nagparequest pa sya ng shabu-shabu. Nagdagdag pa sya ng isang bandehado ng ingredients doon. Infernezz kay teh balingkinitan ang kanyang katawan, maraming inggit sa kanya for sure. Ano kayang sikreto nya?

Pagkabalik ni Warren sa mani/pedi nya eh pinagmamalaki nyang bayootipul na uli ang kuko nya. Ok lang ako kasi I can manage naman to cut my own nails, sure pa akong di ko ito maaksidente. Lumipat kasi sa may bandang harapan. Nagpaorder na rin ng shabu shabu. Kumuha ako ng kalahating bandehadong food plus mga sangkap sa umami soup namin: corn, tofu, squid balls, carrots, pechay, at ilan pang greens. Si teh daan lang ng daan sa amin, she keeps coming back for more. Madaling nagretire ang Warren sa fiestahan. Napilitan tuloy akong ubusin lahat. Pero si teh anjan na naman, ice cream naman ang uupakan. Mejo nachallenge lang ako ng konti kaya inubos ko na ng tuluyan lahat ng nasa plato at kaserola, except yung sabay over na yon. Ang ending, winner si teh! 1-0


Moral of the Story: Ang umaarteh sa bar wala ni tira-tirang ka-date. Ang walang arteh sa food walang tira tira sa plate. Dahil ang magtitira may fine, parurusahan sila sa ngalan ng buwan!

Party of 1

Lone chair by kyle_t via Flickr.
All that remains is just an empty chair.

Yah know my heart skips a beat everytime someone describes someone I'm so into like "he's like you." In a way, it's like my emotional oscilloscope is desperately radar-ing for someone within the wavelength.

I tire from this life-long search for THE ONE. I think I already found my soul mate, one who gets how I think and feel. We're friends and that's the best thing it could get. Matters of finding one to share your soul is one thing. Matters of finding one to share you heart another. I can only handle some time of distracting the heart and mind before collapsing.

This constant search for one like me is taking too long. And then I just thought, maybe, just maybe, I'm not looking for some like me. Maybe I'm looking for JUST ME. And it wounds me the thought that I can ONLY love myself. I should stop looking for my clone.

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My scariest nightmare would involve me going to lovapalooza ALONE. Not that I would. It would be against reason or just plain common sense. I may not know what is the sound of one hand clapping, but I know well that one pair of lips trying to kiss produces no sound nor sensation nor spark. Care to share yours? hahah

Implikasyon: Tigilan na ang Whitney Houston* overdose.


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*I believe the children are the future... singing bee ito pramis.

Magba-blog ako ng diary entry ko next time. Yung lighter ang mood. Shett alam na kapag umi-english ako. Grammar Nazi Alert! Time space warp ngayon din!

Eraser

Pink eraser by Pink Sherbet Photography
"Erase! Erase! Erase!" ~Ate Marya

Biglang enter frame si Sher one morning. Kakagaling lang sa isang rough awayan blues with his ex boyfie. I thought break na sila, pero parang ganon talaga ang general feel from both camps. He had insisted na it's the end na... period. No erase. To infinity.

Out of the blue sinuggest nyang manood ako ng isang vid from youtube. Since walang sounds ang bulok na PC ko sa office, sinend na lang nya yung lyrics.
Sher: Listen to One by Mary J. Blige and U2. It's really nice promise. It's angsty and at the same time pleading. Wrapped in a tone of "you have only yourself to blame."

Athan: Oooh angsty. I like it. Kasing levelling ba ni Alanis ito? heheh

Sher: Ayy hindi ganun ka indie as Alanis. It's classic rock. A rebellion from a soul level.

Athan: I dunno if I've heard it sa radio. Useless kasi mga stations dito sa office, puro tagalog at pop songs lang. Sukang suka na ako sa Baby at 21 guns. Help!

Sher: hahahahha. I love this part: "Did I disappoint you? Or leave a bad taste in your mouth? You act like you never had love and you want me to go without. Well it's too late tonight to drag the past out into the light"

Athan: Hmmmm... may pinaghuhugutan?

Sher: Naman! Kasi when you love dapat give it all and don't look back. And I expect the same. Yun lang. This is my anthem now. Well... I should say anthem... period.

Athan: hahah. Wag mo tutuldukan ang mga salita mo. Baka sa future maghagilap ka ng fluid corrector.

Sher: I don't believe in liquid corrector... It makes things messy. I believe in starting a new sentence. If it just paraphrases the previous thought it just means it's important.

Athan: So. Is. It. Better. To. Say. Things. In. Periods. Rather. Than. Go. Back. Question. Mark.

Sher: Yes

Athan: Well, at least you're giving it emphasis.

Sher: Like. Let's. Have. Sex. Period.

Athan: Omg. Nakakaloka yung last na sinabi mo. Yung period. hahah

Sher: ahahahahahahah. hay. Periods only mean the beginning of a new sentence.


Well ngayon they're back and vacationing abroad. Happy for them. Baka ganun nga, they're on a new sentence because they're important for each other. Nagkaroon ng emphasis sa sex love life ang small glitch na nangyari.

Yung story nila wala pang period. Lagyan na lang ng ellipsis... like everyone else's....


Moral of the Story: Laging magbaon ng eraser just in case. You can never can tell.

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Sher inunahan na kita. Waiting for the more poetic version of this conversation....

Fire

Birthday Cake by Matt Comi via Flickr.
That's not my cake, but it wouldbe  ok to have 13 candles.

Eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh
2-N-E-Eight.

Ok fine I'm moving one step closer to the edge of the calendar. Not that it scares me, I mean its already three years past since I've marked that I should've done everything in my life... but failed. hahah

So I've turned 28 this year. I've been joking with my friends that it's gonna be my leap year, I'm skipping counting this year. Next year na lang.

Trivia: Did yah know that every 28 years the placement of days on the calendar will be exactly the same. Some would argue against it, it will take 7 years daw. Duh. Have you forgotten to count leap years?

So anyways, I was born on a Sunday around 2:45 PM as per my certificate of live birth. Born under Cancer in the western skies, and a Dog under the eastern star system. Both signs under the element of water, which is mostly associated with the emotions. That's where I get all my emo-ness, not just once, but twice! Imagine?! hahah

And it gets worse during the full moon. The last time was last week during the Lunar White party. Mejo balisa at wala sa wisyo. The other time was during 2009's Blue moon, but that was self-imposed emo-ness.

Okay fine ako na talaga ang madrama pero di naman halata. Sabi ni Ian, "Cancerians tend to have a hard shell." Kaya naitatago ko yung mga kaemohang iyan.

Heniweys, my numbers are also mixed up. So I'm 28 now, but I look 21-ish, my mind thinks 14-ish, but my heart feels 35-ish. Bakit di na lang lahat 28? At kailangan talaga lahat multiples of 7? (or pinilit ko lang ipasok sa 7s) heheh
Eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh
You better ring the alarm.
And now I'm quoting K-Pop songs. Son seemed to enjoy the song on blast on his earphones. I didn't even get what the message of the song is.

But I think I needed that. Fire I mean. In Pokemon culture, fire is ineffective against water. I need all the fire I can get to dry all that excessive water levels. Now na!

And before I get too emo I have to thank the special little monsters who made my week. Regular blogging will resume after a while.


Thanks to my FSR family for the greets and wishes particularly to my Flora, Fauna and Merryweather: Jackie, Jun and Nhoy.

Thanks to Fab5 for the pasta party. Thanks to Ken for accommodating us. To Ezz for the lugaw at tokwa. Amoy bawang at luya pa rin yung kamay ko heheh. To Jan and Mjay and Pau for being there. Wait, wag na si Pau dahil kuripot magpa-ice cream.

Thanks to Son for the Kropek and Gilbey's gin. Bangagan sa Katipunan. Lurvett!

Thanks to Larnie, Jen and Ate Sha for the Hungry Hippo moments. Tipid muna tayo this week.

Thanks to Mam Zen, Irene and the gang for the back float lessons. Kahit papano eh lulutang na ako.

Thanks to Arvy for the free full body massages. Go na!

Thanks to Ferdie for the doggie stuffie. Thanks mom for the Clive Cussler novel. Thanks Anskie and Romeo for the choco cake.

I had a fun week so there's really no reason to be down. Heypi ako. Heypi ako. Heypi ako. Heypi ako... *repeat to fade*